Marqyse Evans

English II- 4^th

Ms. McKoy

September 4, 2013

This kind of Love

As I sat at the all too ordinary lunch table, my thoughts began to drift, the world closed out, and the place my body began to accept as its own became an unrecognizable blur. When I finally caught my wandering feelings I became conscious they were about a female. This wasn't new, I occasionally caught myself day dreaming of females, but that’s only of their physical appearance. This was Different. I not only envisioned her shoulder length black hair, dark brown eyes, light brown complexion (possibly mixed), but I noticed her rare ability to make me smile, her skills in basketball, and her intelligence. I grasped my desire to be with her, and threw it up for her to willing clasp in her hands; however, what I didn't know was she would throw hers back. We began to talk and eventually dated, but my family moved to South Carolina and we had to break up. During this time period, my emotions began to shift. I shut out my friends and molded myself in an anti-social monster, but why was I having these feelings? What was the inevitable force tanking at my heart? It was love. Or so I believed.

While we, as human beings, focus on the emotional stand point of love, the scientific point of view asks the question is love an addiction? Michael Reynaud wrote in this excerpt on love and addiction “…Love addiction, but its phenomenology has the same similarities to substance dependence.” (Reynaud 3). In this quote Reynaud was saying that being “in love” also carries the same resemblance as being on drugs. In this article he also conveys the point of, along with drug addiction, being in love brings out an “unrestrained desire” (Reynaud 3) if you are in the presence of said “love” one. So, were the emotions I were feeling real, or were they just another mind trick?

I would like to explore the topic is love an addiction because I want people to know that perhaps the feelings they have can be altered by choosing a different thought pattern. People say “You cant choose who you love,” but I say you can. Love is just a though process and can lead to an addiction to the person you are in “love” with.